New Year.

It will soon be the new year. I'm not one to make resolutions because honestly they never really fall through and everyone can testify to that being some what accurate. I really, truly would like to try to make it through the year without being so negative. I'm not very well liked at my job, I don't get overwhelmed with romance at home but I really don't have to be such a miserable oaf. My emotions, act of victimizing is something I've been used to my whole life. It's all I know. 

I see things that don't exist when something doesn't go according to the script in my head. yeah, that's actually a good way of looking at it. If something goes away from the script I have already planned out in my head I feel immediately threatened and afraid.   I guess i'm just so afraid things will leave and never return. But we've been over this already. The point is I'd like to try and keep things the way they are and over analyze everything. I want things to go accordingly and work perfectly. 

Lord will not fail me! He truly has never failed me! he's given me everything i'I've ever asked for. All at a good time his timing is impeccable with such things.

 I'll be in this year as a wife and a functioning member of society! I am eager to see where this year takes me...Little nervous but I wouldn't be here if it wasn't part of his mighty plan! "Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and he will establish your plans." Proverbs 16:3 
Happy New Year Everyone!....

PS: this is will be my first new year's eve kiss! worth the wait!