Believing in Christ.

I was watching Hellbound? this documentary on everyone’s different perception on hell and if some are going or if no one is going. I can’t really understand why this is such a ”confusing topic” The bible states these things in black and white. I couldn’t believe how many pastors are preaching the wrong thing as well. One preacher was flat out saying “God hates everyone right now, literally hates you!!”  One preacher was saying “don’t panic! If God loves you and his children then no one will go to hell” One man was saying that the description of hell Jesus spoke of in Revelation was about an event that had already occurred. “Weeping and Gnashing of Teeth” Giving some people a sigh of relief thinking that when they die it’ll be a purgatory like a time out until you realize he is real! which gives us more time to sin and not worry! NO! That’s a trap! Westboro Baptist church members, and the Mark Driscoll-like leaders, do not stand for my Christ! 

I sitting here thinking like….What is wrong some christian’s/people today actually believing that. They’re following false prophets which the bible clearly warned us against and how to look for them.  "Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves." Matthew 7:15

However,  I can sorta feel why some partial believer’s, non believer’s, spiritual people would like to believe this notion that when they die they will go straight to paradise. They like this notion because it’s gives them sinful freedom. Basically saying “I don’t have to believe because your God apparently loves me and I don’t have to worry about the eternal punishment you speak of” Or the partial believer’s who think “I’m skeptic but I go to church and give to the poor so I’ll be fine on judgement day” etc. etc. Think of your own examples. 

The bible, if you seriously read it! gives you clear instruction of what can happen if you don’t accept Jesus. Before Jesus we were all in trouble! But God didn’t want to be so far from us! He loves us so much! So he gave up his only son up for sacrifice so that we all will have a beautiful afterlife forever with him!

Here’s a scenario I was thinking about…
There are so many people who get so hurt when we say..Well, if you don’t believe in Jesus and help yourself you are going to be punished. I mean I don’t know if there’s an easier way to explain it..It sounds really harsh but it’s reality. But God is our heavenly FATHER so guess what he’s our parent. Our creator and we aren’t listening to him! What happens when you don’t listen to your parents? not all good things happen, What happens when you break the law? you go to jail! Everything has consequences so why shouldn’t your afterlife be the same ordeal? 

Think about this: 

How many lies have you told your whole life? 
Have you ever stolen?
Have you lusted?
Have you been greedy?
Have you ever been insanely jealous?
Have you ever spoken the lord’s name in vain?
Have you denied belief?
have you ever betrayed someone?
If you have said yes to atleast all of these things then that makes you a 

Liar
Thief
Selfish person
Adulterer 
jealous person
Blasphemer 
Doubter
Judas Iscariot 
That’s probably a penny of what Judgement Day would be like. So I’m thinking for those who believe that in the end they’re all ”saved”…Well, If you knew a person whom you cared for  did all these things against you personally and your family would be coming over to dinner after you’ve tried your best to be polite to them, Help them repeatedly, believe that there was hope they’d change and stop doing those things to you and your family? and on top of it you’ve had the hardest week of your life! Literally! Would you want them over? Do you think they would deserve the comforts of your home? The delicious food that you and your family made? And worked so hard for? Allow them to enjoy your company? Allow them to rejoice in joy? Think about it. 


Why should Our heavenly father allow people to who do not believe in him, Who mock him, Who constantly choose willingly to ignore his word, Who choose willingly to side with the devil. Who rebel against everything he has ever asked allow you to come to his gates and open them to you? Why? Because you gave a homeless person 5 cents when you were 20? NO! 

You cannot enter the kingdom of heaven on acts of kindness and being a good person! Not how it works.  Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. John 14:6  and Secondly For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. Romans 7:18 With that no one is a perfectly good person. You’re a human being coming from Adam and Eve. Adam and Eve sinned against God because they were tempted by Lucifer. 

The lord God will always love you! This is the biggest misconception a lot of false teacher’s preach. Like I said he’s our father. If you do something wrong he will be disappointed and hope you choose correct, repent and try again! Your sins are forgiven 70X7! forever and ever! His love is unconditional and endures forever. So please don’t believe that he hates you, he doesn’t love you, has abandoned you! Seek him! talk to him the best relationship you’ll ever have is with the lord! 

When the end of your life comes and you do not accept Jesus well, then unfortunately, you don’t get to be home with him. There is only so much heartbreak a parent can take from a child who doesn’t want to know him, love him, and denies him. He gives you a choice! You get to choose your path. Choose wisely 

And for all those Lucifer fans just so you know he’ll be there laughing and he is the accuser so he’s not on anyone’s side but his own he is sin.

 We were given a way out of this though. Through Jesus Christ! He died for us and rose again so they we may live! 

This wasn’t to judge or to point fingers this was to point out false teaching and make you think….Will I really be in heaven? Do I really deserve to be there? At heart no one on this earth deserves to be there! But with JESUS CHRIST WE DO!

 I want everyone to come to Christ and rejoice! So that we all will be together in Heaven! 

God Bless <3 

Earth To Me.

Why does stress and anxiety cause memory to become non existent.
I'm starting to come to terms with the fact that she is in fact envious of me. I had gotten here and everything had been working out smoothly. I fell more in love with my fiance tonight due to the pure open honesty that I had already put together. His mother will soon have to let him go..Some mother's cannot simply handle this fact. Eventually the children leave the nest. Or in this case at least her guidance. I'm the wife, I am in charge. Do not cross me you won't win. I will always have the control.
I don't ever want it to come down to anything negative. Ever! but I have a game plan prepared. Always have one. Their mother's ladies are not as scary as the media makes them out too be. You have to be honest with your partners and explain to them the lines that can and can not be crossed.
Just a friendly reminder to myself. Tolerate, Appease and kiss their ass until most comfortable. Impeccable actress I can be. Impeccable. Ah, but so can she. So can she

Learning

Living with someone is an adjustment if you've never done it before. I've lived with my parents and brother my entire existence. Out of nowhere I now am going to be a wife. Living with a male other than the two I've known my entire life is different. You learn to love that person flaws and all and you learn how to except them, grow with them, fix them or adapt.

I'm very good at adapting to things I've had to do that most of my life. When a man's flaws aren't terrible and are something you can live with it's not so bad. I must not forget this is still new. We are both in this together and learning how things work. I'm trying not to over think details that do not exist.

Why do we let ourselves be consumed by pure evil thoughts? By things that are not of God? Tonight, I asked him something that made him feel like I'm not trusting..I am.....but I'm not . I go off other people's experiences, my past and some other people's present. I do not live in the now. I do not live with a day by day strategy.

There are things you learn about each other in the process of this whole thing. "Dating" is such a cover up story to some couples I think. A lot of people don't want to marry or move in, I think because then you would be not only limiting yourself blah blah but you must show that person who you are. You become vulnerable to the next extreme. At risk of being murdered emotionally, mentally and sending your heart into the meat grinder.

I told myself I would never find anyone to tolerate me. I told myself I was meant for the cat world, I told myself so many things that just weren't true. I spoke to the lord and I asked him I said look, when you find the guy for me let me know I don't need this.

I was stuck for a long time. Until the lord sent him to me. I saw past a lot of his flaws and things I didn't know I could love about a person. He has kinks but who doesn't? Rome wasn't built in a day and no one is perfect. I keep forgetting. The one thing about us two is that from the beginning we didn't put on a show for each other we said take it or leave it. I took it, He took it. I have faith It needs to be stronger.

I will pray for the strength to not look at what other's look at. Looking at the heart, the heart is full of love. I need to stop wanting things in return. Love does not expect wage.

Be careful what you think, your thoughts run your life. Proverbs 4:23 

 Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1

Commit your work to the Lord, and then your plans will succeed." Proverbs 16:3 

Mockingbird.

Have you ever loved something so much you were afraid of losing it? That's me. 
I haven't loved someone so much in a long time. Other than my mother and father. After my father's passing I hid in the shadows of life. I loved my mother and my brother and feared losing them all the time. 

After I found my soon to be husband it was another thing on the list I feared losing. There's nobody like him, anywhere at all. I truly believe my mother and I found the only two compassionate loving men in this world. Sadly, one is gone now. I have mine..I don't want to lose him. 

My father was the only man in my earthly life I was devoted too next to Jesus. But Jesus was in heaven...But now so is my dad it's such a sad reality I wake up to every morning. Then before I start to hurt I remember they both gave me my fiance. I remember they sent him to me for a reason, to help me through all this. Then I feel better. 

Things go accordingly when you include the lord in your plans. I ask him all the time to help me with such ideas I have in my head. So far he's given me so much to be thankful for...So much to be relieved about . It all took a bit of time an some bumpy heartaches but i'm here and i've learned quite afew things along the way haven't I? 

I suppose I did. Prayer's for me and those like me.