Please Stop.

i'm getting a little tired of everyone bitching and moaning and stuff about school. I used too when I was in school, all the time! But here’s the thing you don’t realize…..School is temporary, it’s a lot of work!!!  yes! however, with school there’s a bit more freedom.

You are allowed to have mental health days, you are allowed to ask for help with things, you are learning new things, you are allowed vacations winter, spring, summer. You are allowed to get things discounted with lots of stuff!, you may even be entitled to money itself, you are allowed to go to a ”gym” for free, you are allowed to buy lunch or get it for free, you are allowed to hang out with friends, you are guaranteed 2-maybe a day more off even holidays, you can be offered free health if needed especially mental depending, you are allowed less responsibility it’s all choice, you are allowed to sit on your ass for so many hours in a day. If you’re being bullied or hurt mentally you are allowed to tell, you are allowed to change schools.

When you’re out ”working” whether its your dream career or a job you need you do not get these^^.

You are not allowed a mental health day..unless you can afford it and which in this age you can’t You are allowed to ask for help but only so many times..the employer will then start to think you can’t do the job, you are allowed vacations but after working a year or two straight, You do not get things discounted if you work for a certain company it may depend, There are no ”here” money hand outs especially from aids at that point you need to qualify unless your parents are still helping you, You don’t get to have an hour of free gym time you have to make the time and pay like $30 a month for it, if you have a gym where you live…good for you, you are allowed to have a lunch but only if you work 5 hours or more a day and most likely you have to bring it or buy, You aren’t allowed to chit chat with friends or even co workers sometimes you probably aren’t even at the same job as them so social life is out, You aren’t always guaranteed 2 days off even holidays! You are not offered free health now adays jobs won’t even give you benefits unless you prove to them you can work 40-50 hours a week. Basically exhausting you to the point of a mental break and you have nothing, There is no less responsibility! you need to work to pay for every single solitary thing and pray that you make enough, you do not get to sit down for so many hours if youre at an office job you’d want to move around but regular jobs you’re on your feet all day dealing with demanding people.  Guess what? there will probably be bullies at your job too I’ve dealt with many of them! even my ex-boss and you are allowed to tell but it may cost you your job. You are allowed to change jobs but it will cost you time and money you won’t have for a while.

I didn’t realize any of this until I graduated. School is really hard for people I understand that, School doesn’t prepare you for any of this^^^stuff I just mentioned. But, it’s not forever a job, a career that is basically  forever. it’s harder and harder to be an adult now. Employers do not care if you’re sick, you don’t understand things, mentally drained, stressed, tired, hungry, cold, hot, sore, have no way of getting to work, and the best one yet if you’re going to school while working most employers do not care if you’re juggling! They want your time and work, don’t care if you need more hours or possibly less. etc etc etc..if you get a good employer then kudos! stick with the job if you like it! but this is reality…Don’t be in such a rush to become an adult unless you know you’ve got all your shit together…which you may think you do until life knocks you off your horse.

School really isn’t so bad..not all of it.

Honestly, Make the most of it.

New Year.

It will soon be the new year. I'm not one to make resolutions because honestly they never really fall through and everyone can testify to that being some what accurate. I really, truly would like to try to make it through the year without being so negative. I'm not very well liked at my job, I don't get overwhelmed with romance at home but I really don't have to be such a miserable oaf. My emotions, act of victimizing is something I've been used to my whole life. It's all I know. 

I see things that don't exist when something doesn't go according to the script in my head. yeah, that's actually a good way of looking at it. If something goes away from the script I have already planned out in my head I feel immediately threatened and afraid.   I guess i'm just so afraid things will leave and never return. But we've been over this already. The point is I'd like to try and keep things the way they are and over analyze everything. I want things to go accordingly and work perfectly. 

Lord will not fail me! He truly has never failed me! he's given me everything i'I've ever asked for. All at a good time his timing is impeccable with such things.

 I'll be in this year as a wife and a functioning member of society! I am eager to see where this year takes me...Little nervous but I wouldn't be here if it wasn't part of his mighty plan! "Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and he will establish your plans." Proverbs 16:3 
Happy New Year Everyone!....

PS: this is will be my first new year's eve kiss! worth the wait!